Recovery


Child abuse recovery, I will be having to go to hosital because I have discovered that I have chronic Kidney  diease level 3 soI will be going the hospital a lot.  Also I am having an  injection in my spine,. I have to take my jewel off an weara night glown, and I to me I just wear pjamsa, becasue When I was abused I wore a night shirt and I used to cover my with my covers.


Dad used to take the covers off me and touch me every where. I used to wet the bed at some point when I was awa y from home and no one new why then. 

There are memories we bank out,becasueit is too hard to remember.  Andwhen theright timecomewhenyou are safe your mind will help you to rememeber.  I was abused at nighr and in his bed room I had to touch him  and had him on me and he used to touch my bottom inside and it was very painful..


I am writing about the details, becasue it, is a part of healing.  Joyce Meyer helps me alot.

i love my jewlery, tattoos and going to hosipal you have to take some of it off.

When I was younger my mother used to take me to hosiptal, whist all the abused was happing and then I could not tak about it, and I went to the doctors because of the bruises on me.I have a fear of hosiptal and by writing this out, hopefully my fear has gone.  On one of my pages face the fears, which I am doing by going to th doctors for Chroniv Kidney diease level 3 and injection in my spine.  Also you have to trust the doctors and hosiptal. 

7 years ago the injection went in the wrong place and I got a wheel chair. Also I have to go hosiptal, to check my kidneys and why I am inema  again.