1Recovering from the abuse that you have had to put up and had to grow up, you have to act in a certain way, and you can not always be you and your childhood has vanished. You have had to grow up into an adult before your time. Joyce Meyer missed out on her childhood and now she is 60 years old, she is having her childhood that was stolen. She is happy and very successful.
So what I suggest is,
Have a note pad and write down all your goals, your aims
Have a list of what YOU want to achieve
Take a step at a time, and yes you might be anxious and scared, but you know that God is with you.
If you love cooking, cook
Try and find you and what you would like to do.
Do not let the past control your mind any more.
Be free. I love astronomy and electronics and I do have another web site that i am doing. And yes I am taking my time over it, but I love space and the unknown.
I also like helping people and I chose that .
Recovering from, abused, be hurt, bulling . I hated being hurt and so when I grew up at turned 18 years old I changed my name once, and then again.
I hated the fact that my mother never helped me with school, never cared about my learning. I was always bottom of the class, yes I wanted to dream careers jobs, but I could not. But I did love maths and art. I love astronomy, physics and electronics, but mother stopped me being me. She wanted me to follow her, which is wrong.
You need to be you and follow your dreams, Mother wanted me to be like her. Children need to be themselves and be their own persons.
God wants us to be are our own person not somebody wee are not. But it is very hard to do. I started being rainbow lady dressing like her my hair is rainbow colours my nails are rainbow colours