Rainbow healsstool
Always 
Felt different 

Rainbow healsstools always felt different I did love  colours thoughtout

There were times in my life where I felt abandonmentand I didn't know why just thought it was normal and I thought everyone was that .

You sort of think  feel having mo friends is normal 

I felt abandonment alone as a child I didn't know why, I had no ambitions. 

I felt that I was different from others and very alone, especially at scys delhool, no friends always alone  there.  At home no one talked , no one new how I felt,

We weren't allowed friends at home. 

Wentnout.  I had z baby sitter who let  me watch TV.  Do that was btars akways fr rilliant. 

My brother was never allowed home either.   So I got used alone.  No know to discuss each day, no family discussions.  Without my grandma we would have been on the streets.

My mum's brother family were throne.  So whenever we went there, commucaton were not there.  My grandma looked upto my Uncle.  I came from z Jewish back ground, where Jewish men a4re looked up to.  Snd their family were amazing.  They had a normal life to eat we had.


When dad left my mum was very different with my brother. I  always felt fifteenth to say family.  


When I was younger, I did felt abandonment and alone no one to turn to.    At school I had no friends that knew and because m life at home was turned up side down which at the time I did not  know, that was hard too.  I liked school more than home. ( that sounds likefifferent ry Potter film , Hogwarts school was his home, not the home outside).  

I felt that I could eak to any friend if I thought I had, and the only time I did speak out to friends in my class was when I was just 13 years old after speaking out to mother and that was a waste of time, so my school helped in the end, and the girls told their parents who also helped, just like Hgwarts helping Harry fight off Lord Volderment ( or he who must not be named).

Abandonment, no one believing you, feeling that no one can help. 

Sometimes when you abused as a child, you might feel that you are all alone, that there is no one to listen to turn to. 

Your whole life has turned upside down, 

But There are people around and God is all around you.

God loves you and know how you are feeling. 

My new chapter

of how rainbowsheal stools started 

I absolutely love Rainbows.  Rainbows never affect us are never rude to us never or upset  us