When I was younger, I had to wear a night dress, and for most children,that would not be a problem, but for me it was. Every night i would cover myself, with all mt covers, and al my teddies, to stop whatever was going on. Also the teddies would cover up all the noise, that Dad would make.
Some how each night Dad took the covers off me, to touch me and whatever other horrid stuff he was up to. bedtime was horrid, The light had to be on too, and for children it should not be a problem, but for me yes it was a problem, because I used to watch wo came up the stairs. I was very frightened of Dad.
HEALING IS VERY IMPORTANT
I am going to hospital for an injection to help my back, and instead of wearing pjymas, I have to wear a goune at the hospital, and that worries me. I wear trousers and top for bed. And the memories are too painful for me, but I change this now. It has been very hard for me to heal from this, because of the memories I blanked out from. because was horrific to remember.
Sometimes we blank things out because it is too painful to deal with at the time. I also have evel 3 chronic kideny diease, so I need to be able to manage with going to hospital.
I am adult, and the abuse stop years ago, and by writing, about this should help others and myself to overcome the abuse that dad did every day to me at night time. God is helping me to heal.
I need this injection for my back, so