Since I lost my grandma Iwas buying things that were needed off the internet, but I could not stop. My family all kept saying stop buying . So in the end I started up reading nooks again and it has helped me to grieve the loss of my grandma.
Yesterday I found out that a good funny friend who always had a laugh never mind how much pain they were in. They tried not to complain. I did not know that person as much as my grandma so this grieving is totally differnt.
With my grrandma I need to really forgive her for all the judging,for being so negative. I know that she appolized to me for not beung aware of how much pain and destrution the abuse was caused by my dad , but I need to completely forgive them because they have gone on to a better place and instrad I am the one left with bitterness and I believe in Jesus. In the end if I do not let go of all the anger and bitterness my heart will become hard
So instead of spending money I need to feel my life up with susceeding. Focuses on now and let the past go . Being negative is wrong i been trying to come toterms with problems that I have. One problem is with money and theotheris problems that can not be solved.
I was abused, by someone, that can not be changed, so I manage that bye healing with God's help. Money is sloved by us making money, working 9 to 5 pm or shift work or work for yourself. Kidney diease is not curable, but manageable, and some cancers are cuarble.
I need to get my web sites up and running
I find that my way of healing, is writing down to all ofyou how iheal and manage. I use my cart that iade for self help, and it does work.
I believe that trying to work and keep positive, me dealing with things which helps me.