I am like my grandma, and at the age 97 nearly 98 years old she is dying, but she is the most amazing person i have met. She is open minded,spiritual and used to travel the world,and sometimes the whole family would say too risky dont go, but she did what she wanted went away.
When i had my Batisim no one really wanted a Jewish lady to do that ,but like my grandma they respected what i wanted to do and came to the church where i and my children got batised all of them. I have brought them up Jewish and Christain and when they are adus can chose for themselves
I wont miss being told off for not being perfect but will miss her talking and listening to me. The doctors did not expect her to carry on living at present but she is near to not being hear. I pray that she knows God and joins the rest of her missed my family I do not like seeing her in so much pain and it is selfish of me to want her here.
I thought that writing all this down will help me to face her when she goes . But what I need to do is remember how to recover from feeling so stuck with depression and use my chart to help me out of this problem. Recognising it is very important and doing little steps each day of what I love might be a very good idea. And being me not someone again is neccessary.
We try to follow what our parents want us to be, is not neccesarly what we would like to become and making that step is SCARY but very important. And I might get very anxious and uneasy, but nessarcy.
The way to do theses things, is by learning on the internet.