My life
Not
Theirs

When my grandma had her flat, I loved it but it was hers not mine.  That was her life dream not mine.  When she was dying I asked her if I could have her flat buy her flat but she said no because that was her life and as she told me i have my own life and God has given me life not to just sit and do nothing.  I am at the moment very stressed but it is about time I tried to write  my book and go forward.  

Learn to cook again and I have tablets for my pain down my legs.  So I can start cooking writing  getting on with things.  Sometimes we all need a push to get up and on with life.  My grandma said your life in not this flat.  And I agree, I have my own life to do not to waste.  Like a splinter that needs taking out.  Yes it is painful but I prefer it out not in.  Just like now I'm stressed migraines but instead of worrying I'm going to try and make my achievements my aims like I have always had before.  And slowly do my check list.  

Then my smile will come back so here I go

 You can do the same and if you are scared cuddle  a teddy or something that helps you feel safe.  

My chart that I gave. Depression on side and on the other side how I'm feeling uneasy  anxious fabulous 

That made me laugh 

I'll keep you all up to date with what I'm achieving 

Good luck to all