My
Grandma  

Last year my grandma died and  at the time I found everything too much. I could talk to anyone to much.  TV spotted and whilst I was grieving thempn my dad died found life very hard. 

I had no counsel ping but now I hear her in mind so I realised that even if she isn't hear on the earth she is in another parallel universe .  I can not celebrate or remember her not hear I talk to and to me she hasn't died she's around . 

That's how I see her.  My mum and my brother are closer than we were .  Some how magic in a good way has happened.  

Ibelive that forgiving all my family is absolutely necessary I meanyou me forgive to ourselves 

Now with my grandma, I do miss talking to her even though I didn't do anything right.  She used to listen to me and both my grandma and mum apologized for the terrible abuse that I went I dont know about how you cope when you  lose someone whom you have lost  or you have lost someone that you just dont want to remember like I do not want 

And the same time around 6 months dad died.  

And God knows if he is truly sorry for what he put all my family through. 

He was hopitatal 

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