I had to learn from a very young age not todo what my extended family wanted because what eve they told mr never asking me made me feel very low. I couldn't follow in with them over subjects or join I on their discussions.
So I taught myself to read st 15 to do there was no support. I did talk about to my grandma on her own but years old still not good enough for my extended family. At one point I caught to them in vain very anxious way about my dreams that my aunt joined in with then my mother was doing some weird exercises.
Any way I found a bone Jewish man I also got into trouble going to Church. But each time I tried to do what I wanted but if you step outside of your family exspection their circle ,you have a problem.
I was supposed to follow exactly what my family did like my mother. Not have a job not learn sciences and to this day I have tried to teach myself. My children have our support on whatever they do.
I feel very uneasy to follow what I want to do. I'm very stubborn and I have had to learn to be and assertiveness within my family. Be my own person and I hope in the end that they respect me but if not never mind.
When my abuse came out no one would talk about it like everything else had to shut up about troubling subjects and what I wanted to do in life.
Be you never let any one stop you being you and standing out iin crowd I find hard. Radio astronomy I love but I need to get better maths and learn astronomy.